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윤슬: 최우영씬 여자 때문에 죽고 싶었던 적 없어요??
오스카 : 없어요.
그럼 내가 알려줄께요.
잠도 못자고 밥도 못 먹는건 기본이고
잠들고 깨는 것도 지옥이예요
사랑했던 사람과 어떻게 남이 되는건지 알지 못하니까
다른 사람한테 내색할 수도 없어.
그 사람 욕할까봐.
그래서 혼자 울어요..
우린 끝났는데 우린 헤어졌는데,
자꾸만 사랑했던 기억들만 떠올라
그러면 그럴수록 그 기억들을 지워야 하는 날이
하루 하루 더 늘어날 뿐인데..
그래서 버림 받은 사람에게 365일 헤어지는 날이죠.
근데 정말 아픈건 그 사람은 내 생각 따윈 안하는 거 같아.
나만 이러는거 같아
그 사람은 나 따윈 다 잊고 행복한 겨를 밖에 없는 것 같아
정말 죽고 싶은 마음 뿐인데 죽을 수도 없어
영영 그 사람을 못보게 될까봐..
그런거예요 헤어질 땐 심정이
본인이 왜 그 여잘 잡는지
어떤 마음인지 얼마나 절박한지..
Yoon Seul: Mr Choi Woo Young, have you ever wanted to die because of a girl??
Yoon Seul: No?? Then let me tell you what it’s like.
You can’t sleep, you can’t eat, that’s the basics. Even if you fell asleep, waking up feels like hell.
You can’t understand why you ended up separating with the person you loved, you can’t even tell others about it.
In case they blame it on that person. So you cry alone.. Telling yourself, “We have finished, we have broken up” but the memories of once being in love keeps coming back. So every single day, you try your best to erase those memories.
But doing that every single day, the days just become longer.
Thus, for a person who was abandoned in a relationship, it feels like a breakup everyday for 365 days.
But what’s most painful is that the other person does not seem to be suffering what you are going through.
It feels like “I’m the only going through this”.
It feels like “the other person has forgot all about me, and only remembers the outer shell of happiness between us”
You only want to die, but you can’t really die. Because if you died, you can’t see that person anymore, forever..
That’s what it’s like, the feeling of separation.
So now do you know why you have to grab the girl, with what kind of feelings, what kind of desperation…
Do you understand now?